Suze
Suzie Q
Suzie McQuzy
Suze McQ
The Baby
Beeps
Beepy Deep
Beepy Deeps
Beepy Deepy
Beepsy
Beepsy Boo
Angel Baby
Honey Baby
Sweet Honey Girl
Sweetie Patootie
Cutie Patootie
Sweet Little Angel
Angel Girl
Girly Whirly
Beepsy Boppity Boo
Radical self- acceptance. Cultural critique. Bringing shadow observations to light.
Suze
Suzie Q
Suzie McQuzy
Suze McQ
The Baby
Beeps
Beepy Deep
Beepy Deeps
Beepy Deepy
Beepsy
Beepsy Boo
Angel Baby
Honey Baby
Sweet Honey Girl
Sweetie Patootie
Cutie Patootie
Sweet Little Angel
Angel Girl
Girly Whirly
Beepsy Boppity Boo
These people are sick
A perversion of care
Action eclipsed by fawning
I did ask for it
Help, I mean
It never came and it never came and it never came
They feign oblivion—
Who benefits?
It's not the water snake you have to watch out for
It's the frog
Two egrets stand alone in a cascade of water
When everyone has changed the subject
You are the one who remains
At least it's Milkshake Monday
After coating myself in P. incanum oils
Earthy and redolent
We walked the dog through the woods and played with her in the creek
I make the points and then I stop
The deer have eaten my Fragaria
I can see now that you were unavailable
Back on the bike again
Only eleven easy miles, drizzly and wonderful
Soon enough we'll be looping the big ascent
I have developed some parasocial relationships
Feels good to know more of what I'm doing
I no longer feel unmoored
I do feel, perhaps, a little rudderless
Still, she is planting
It takes years to know what's really taken root
The goslings are getting so big
Am I supposed to apologize for being cheesy? I mean it
Remember when I lived in Queens? I ran through Astoria Park several times a week
The students and I stroll slowly through the rainy gardens, sit describing a bromeliad in the internationally renowned conservatory
I wish the mountains didn't feel so far away
Tomorrow I will tend the native garden as children play around me
Last Friday I waded knee-deep into creek water and splashed about with my dogs
The wolf pads silently through the forest
On Sunday I'll learn about birdsong
Time zones have aligned
Two dogs whoofing sleep breaths out their nostrils
He mounted the horse and he rode it
I feel like a shaken baby
We walked a horseshoe inside the creek
The weekend started out strong
Now I'm counseling psychosis
I have some experience with people who are out of their minds
Mine is not the steadiest ground
Driving back roads through the country
Water stretching beyond, beyond —
It's so pretty here
Does the onslaught ever stop
He held up a mirror and I looked so sad
The clarity of knowing how to canoe
The confidence of having directly sowed the lettuce seed
Tomatoes happily growing
Downy wood mint coming into bloom
Avoiding the hitch that hooks me to his star
Remember when I planted swamp milkweed in the dry dark?
Oh remember that ghastly comment made from ignorance
Remember how you got stitched into his sweater and nearly lost your mind on the office floor
Now the winterberry sets itself to thriving
Now you align the green hull with the bobbing dock, perfectly and on the first try
You stand in your garden in socks and sandals and harvest a bowl full of strawberries
At last I've made it
Shin-deep in the creek
The fray of whitewater bouncing
down the waterfall
How long it took to get here
Lost in the Harrisburg suburbs
Too high to read the cardinal directions
Shot through aluminum
Bushwhacking to the water
That maroon knit coat
One large boulder becomes a talus field at twelve thousand feet
Jogging past ancient pines
I only wear technical jackets —
Down fill power, nylon ripstop, wind and waterproofing
I was so embarrassed
I thought you loved me
Today the dog plunges into the water after a buoyant yellow stick
Today my toe hurts after slamming it, bare, into a birch root
Today I climbed down to the water alone
Today you are merely a ghost
The steering wheel, a reminder
We are all struggling to grow
The struggle is part of the growth, I mean
Every other time I've hunted out my own failures
Arrived apologizing, first fingers then bed
Did the research
Sorted things out
Prepared the plan for moving forward
This time I'm simply taking care of me
Absent of animosity
A kind of freedom
Oh Mt. Sopris —
Wind, horse
When it thunders, the birds don't stop singing