Stop overriding me
Confident enough not to
Stained old comforter
Palm leaves green on one side of the pane
Foggy bare limbs on the other side of the glass
Still haven't bought curtains
You are not privy to a lot of my dating life
Kissed dozens and dozens
Danced so many strangers pressed to the wall
A lifetime ago
I don't track my life by a child's aging, but by my own
Something has changed inside of me
No longer willing this exposure
I love you and
Even without the past
I cannot be treated this way
Long bangs obscure my brows
Like two eyelids squeezed against a sandstorm, I close up
Tonight = an occultation
Have I ever given myself to feeling like this before?
Nine days pass, a zombie
Wake up to find myself carrying conversation
Quiet stream in the darkened passenger seat
I have a congenital defect
I used to think she could change them
I did. But at great cost
Time to hydrate my eyelashes
I bought three bottles of wine for 42 dollars
The cashier did not wish to speak
Because I am rebuilding my legs hurt every day
Making space for myself
Pink mountain rising from the mist
For two hours I remembered what it felt like to be dazzling
Just a glint of it
